Its been five...

Its been five days since John Died. I'v had a little bit of time to think.

We did not talk much in the last four months. I had felt guilty about that till today. We have never had small talk. I did not even realize that till today. So if I had nothing to say we probably would not have talked. And if he did have something to say he would have called me.

I went over to John and Diantha's house today (side-note When does it become just Diantha's house) to mow there lawns as they are having family in town for the memorial. It was surreal mowing his back lawn and raking up the grass as that was his job. It was surreal to know he wasn't gonna come home and offer me a beer out of his fridge.

I kneeled next to the bench in "Diantha's" back yard that overlooks the canyon and realized John and I would not sit there on cool summer evening again. It was one of the saddest moments of my life. We have sat on that bench for five years discussing our lives the challenges in them and how to overcome them Christ.

I know that John was a righteous man and I know that God is pleased with him. I know that he is being rewarded for the service he has done for Christ's kingdom for Christ's Glory. I know that because of John I will be able to carry on. I know because of John that I will be there for Diantha and her children.

The Lord has a purpose for all things under Heaven. Wether they be to make us stronger to carry on alone or weaker so that others can help us carry on..............

For John Bernard Fields

There is nothing left to say

There is nothing left to do

I'll my Tears and Prayers

All my pleading

You will be where you are to be

And I

I will be who I can be

Without you to help me

And even now

Lazarus can still rise from the dead

And so can you

But not by my might

Nor by my power

So I am

I am powerless and small

With all power and small faith

And yet

I still know not his ways

Mine are not His

And His are not mine

The end

I hope not

It's been ruff

Well, its has been! So I've done 3 races since the Temecula weekend. 

LA Circuit Race 

Hunnikens Criterium

Ontario Gran Prix

LA Circuit Race, is a 3 mile course with 2 180 degree turns 1 direction into the wind and one away from the wind. I was getting sick the day before of race but had payed ahead of time So I did it. This Race I actually felt like I had speed in my legs.  I ended up off the front in groups of 10 and 20 3 or 4 times but none of the moves stuck.  By the end of race I was tired and every effort to get to the front the group kept pushing me into the gutter. I came out of the last turn in 60th moved into 40th (pretty bad, but it has been worse). 

Hunnikens Criterium, I always feel real good at this race. So I sat in and marked Justin Beope who always finishes well.  He went off the  front twice and I went with hi both times. the 1st time we almost split the field. The 2nd time he saw me sitting on his wheel and quit. So The las 3 laps a team actually had a lead-out train and I was to far back to get in the sprint.

Ontario Gran Prix, Ah the thorn in my side. This race deserves it's own post so I will write about this one shortly 

Murrietta Crit

Well I sat in and saved myself for the final 3rd of the race (the last 20 minutes). I never felt that good unless they were going slower. With 20 minutes to go James Enright went to the front with a teammate.  James is really strong/fast so I followed him up and was in the top 10 quickly they then proceeded to turn on the gas and we held 32 mph for 2.5 minutes. It was windy up there and suddenly I remembered why I was hiding near the back.  Within that lap I was burning lots of matches (energy/efforts) I came unglued and slid to the back hanging on for on more lap before I popped off. I am very disappointed, even a little angry.  Need more speed!!

J.

the night before

Well tomorrow is the start of the  tour de murietta. I don't have jitters but I am expectant.  I hope to do well, as I have worked towards this race.  So if your reading pray for me. I'll try not to stress and just do what I am supposed to.

J.    

This is a random thoughts post while listening to Josh Garrels

Hope this is not to confusing but here we go

I am swollen up with me All my feelings All my emotions 

And the violin in my ear Keeps murmuring the same note 

The same feelings The ones that are making me feel swollen

I am blank and I am filled 

I am filled with Joy and Sorrow 

 Crying and pitiful I am 

I feel all of there pain and I understand

The pain of those who attack you

I have been attacked 

I want to hold you I want to love you  

I want to comfort you  I want to protect you

Oh little children I love you

And still I fall so short 

And but for his grace 

do I hold and cling to his merciful being 

Training

So I am training for a 2 day race (The Tour of Murrietta). Training right now consists of 4 x 4s.  4 minutes as fast as I can go 4 minutes rest, times 4.   I'm doing it on a 3% grade and trying to average 19 mph.  It is going well and were gonna see if it is helpful in the next 2 weeks.

Peace out,

J. 

Ontario Crit

Well this was the first race that I thought I was going to do well in and the first one that was actually fast. My category usually averages between 24 and 25.5 miles per hour. Today was 26.9 for 55 minutes.

My legs felt flat the entire race and wouldn't wake up. We cyclists like to call that having no pop. When it came time to sprint I went around some people but not enough to get in the top 20.  I was disappointed, but there is a lot more racing to do this year. If you want to see a picture of me suffering click on the link below.  

http://dmunson.smugmug.com/gallery/7438664_KjonB#479655327_uvZXU-A-LB

I also did 45 minutes (half) of the Pro race which was stacked and averaged 29 mph owww!!

Race prep

Well yesterday I did 2 lead out sprints and today I am gonna do one. I am on a no beer weekend, going to consume food and water like it is going out of stock.  1 more lead out sprint to do today and no hot sauce to screw up the pipes.  

Jesse

Well Ontario Gran Prix is in 2 days, my concussion is gone, and I love this race.  In addition I just got my new team kit and it looks sharp pictures to come. I am really excited to see how form holds up during a race that suits me. Wish me God Luck. 

Cheers

Jesse 

Snow day Feb 15

        

                                           

This is the good stuff right here

end of 08 beginning of 09

Long Beach Crit "So my gut says to Attack"

So this is one of the races I do well in. I've take top 10, 3 times in the last 3 years. So I was pretty excited to do this race. There was a good size field 70 to 80 riders. The 1st 4 or 5 laps I stayed in the very front. But nothing went immediately. So I sat securely at the back for the 1st 20min that is usually when the next opportunity to get away is. So at 20min I moved back up pretty easily and stayed in the top 20 riders and watched for the move. There was a really good headwind on the back stretch and every thing that started to form at the front and looked good was pulled back quickly so with 16 min to go it was going to be a field sprint. This is something I have not worked on much this year so I wasn't quite sure what my plan was. So I sat near the back trying to decide what I was going to do. Then the lap count down started and right at 2 to go I saw my train heading for the front so I latched on and within 30 seconds and 2 corners I was 10th, then a surge came which I judged correctly and I was 5th. So the set up is looking perfect but riders 1 and 2 are running out of steam and were crossing the start/finish line with 1 to go. So my gut says Attack, but I hesitated and did not commit and the next surge comes from both sides and the 2 guys in front of me sit up. So I can't go with the surge cause I am boxed in and the in 30 seconds and 2 corners I'm 70th. So I went up the outside hard and got boxed in at about 50th and then into the last corner I passed 20 25 guys. So I ended up somewhere between 25th and 30th.... Next time listen to your gut!


J

Do You Like it....

Do You Like My Game Face?

I am so Hard!

Feeling Fast

Well I am Starting to feel fast. I have been rppin it up at the local practice race. I took 3rd last night after a very hard race that 30 of the starting 50 shelled off the back. I made one of the big moves the week before which got caught but only because the pros chased us down . So above is a picture of how I feel all 6'1" , 155 lbs (2lbs of hair included) of me.

Barrio Logan Gran Prix

Well this is one of the fastest and hardest Criteriums of the year. I have only finished one time in the last four years. It is a figure eight course with potholes in all the corners. The frontside of the course is uphill all the way to the start/finish line. So I sat in top 30 for the 1st 15 minutes of the race it was really scary. The field was all over the rode and running into eachother I was fight for position and loosing a lot of places (they were also crashing "Hooray Crashing!!") so I was yoyoing up and back. This started to weigh on me so I went to the back and sat in. The pace was really fast on the climb and every lap I was sure I was gonna come off, but every lap as we neared the top I was still there and passing people. There were 2 more crashes both I was behind and the 1st of these 2 brought me to a screeching halt and I missed the curb. They gave me a free lap and I was thrown back into the field. With 3 laps to go they crashed again and I chased back on. With 1 to go I was toast so I sat up and rolled it in. Overall this Race was amazing. I finished and my form is realy coming around. I wish I had been more aggressive but my legs and mind did not have it in them toda. Tommarrow is another day and another race so praise the Lord.


Jesse Joy Boy

Ripping it up at the Torrance Crit 4/20

Torrance Crit 4/19

Well, Thursday I went home from work with a cold Friday I slept till 1100 am and Saturday Veronica Motorpaced me off the back of the car (27 mph 20 min) while I sneezed uncontrollably. Sundays race I started at the front driving the pace and following every thing the first 20 min. I was fast and everyone else was attacking so I couldn't go off the front early on.
Before the race I saw another racer (Casey) from last year who was incredibly strong. I wasn't sure If he was racing with us or in the category above us and his teammates who were in the race were not sure Either. We had a really big group and since I was on the front I hadn't seen him yet. So, I drifted back in the group a bit to see who was there and sure enough he was hiding back there. So the next 15 min I marked him at on point we were both in the to 20 but he was on the outside of the field and I was on the inside. The slowed and the outside accelerated. I saw the whole race unfolding and I was stuck behind the slow guys so I started yelling that's the move its happening its happening. The field let it go (3 guys) for 1 lap and then as I was getting to the front they started chasing. The field got just within reach of them and then sat up except the 2 guys that bridged across(now its a 5 up race). So now I was angry I missed the move and it was a good one. I missed the bridge and it added some good horsepower. So I went animal style growling out of the saddle spitting at 30/35mph for an entire lap (1mile). I fractured the entire field and made it onto the back of the break. So as I am pulling into the back of the break I'm going 33 and there going 28 so I hit my breaks (very bad decision) They punched it and I was dropped from the break. So 5 guys came by who were in the field and I got in 6th place and they finish the job of bringin the break back. So the whole effort had me tosted so I sat in and tried to recover. My effor tpayed off though because Casy trye dtwice mor to get away and I yelled at guys in the fild and they reeled him back for me. The last time they caught him I attacked and did not get very far. I finished in the field with barely any energy 35th or 36th. Not bad for being sick as a dog.



J

Hunnikens Crit 4/12

So I didn't finish today but I tryed to win. I went hard from the gun me and Nate O neil got away on the 2nd lap the field just let us go. Nate wouldn't work so we let the fild catch us and I got back into the front (top7). I followed all the moves and I and on one occasion heard Gods voice till me to Go so I moved real hard and maintained my position in the field because there was surge right as I moved, the field sat up and then God said go again and so I attacted with all my might and when I was sure I had gotten clear o fthe field I looked back to see who was with me. It was Paul Dessualt who said "keep going Jesse, Faster". He took a really hard pull and when it was turn to pull I looked down at my speedometer and we were goin 35mph into the headwind (Ouch!). The field did not like are move and put an end to it quickley. When the field catches you your supposed to jump back in well if you wait to long to jump your at the back and that is exactly what I did. At fiesta Island when you jump back in there are 100 riders you have alot of time. In this race there was only 35 to 40 I waiting 30 seconds to long and got dropped GAME OVER!!!