We did not talk much in the last four months. I had felt guilty about that till today. We have never had small talk. I did not even realize that till today. So if I had nothing to say we probably would not have talked. And if he did have something to say he would have called me.
I went over to John and Diantha's house today (side-note When does it become just Diantha's house) to mow there lawns as they are having family in town for the memorial. It was surreal mowing his back lawn and raking up the grass as that was his job. It was surreal to know he wasn't gonna come home and offer me a beer out of his fridge.
I kneeled next to the bench in "Diantha's" back yard that overlooks the canyon and realized John and I would not sit there on cool summer evening again. It was one of the saddest moments of my life. We have sat on that bench for five years discussing our lives the challenges in them and how to overcome them Christ.
I know that John was a righteous man and I know that God is pleased with him. I know that he is being rewarded for the service he has done for Christ's kingdom for Christ's Glory. I know that because of John I will be able to carry on. I know because of John that I will be there for Diantha and her children.
The Lord has a purpose for all things under Heaven. Wether they be to make us stronger to carry on alone or weaker so that others can help us carry on..............
